Its here and it hurts!!

by Terry
(Douglas Georgia)

I have been seeing my married man a little over two years.. He was my boss at a cargo company, he and i started by working together he was the best i have ever loved, He told me he was in process of divorce and it would be final in six months, I told him i would not continue to see a man who was married but after six months i was in love and then it was after first of year then it was this and that and so on.. then finally he moved into his mothers. Well needless to say after about 5 months he moved back home but he said it was cause he was paying for it and he wants her to leave she knows about me but i dont think she believes it cause she dont want him to leave nor does she want to leave he says he dont love her he loves me but these things take time, he says im impatient he has a 21 year old daughter and a almost 17 year old he is driving me crazy i want to quit seeing him but i love him so much..I always think what if he does leave her and i have moved on by then..It kills me and it hurts so bad we have been up and down i cant take it no more i know i deserve better i know i do but he is giving me nothing to hold on to or i have let him do this to me i only have myself to blame!!